Most things I’ll never have to courage to say for several reasons either my tone will be taken as aggressive or my eyes will well up with tears or just some vulnerable situation will take place that I’d just rather not have anyone see me in and thus with taking finger to screen to vent, yes? Cheap therapy.
I’ve grown up a whole lot since I started to play steelpan at 16. A hobby that literally saved my life. Through the hobby of palancing,salsa-ing, caressing the notes of the pan I made life long friendships. Friends that I’ll love for life like Kandice, Alex, Maurice, Amal, Ryan, Kelsey, Arianne, Keanu, Kadeem, Analiese, Andoni, Kieran, Mr. Cas and my momma Jules along with her family. I also had people that I wasn’t particularly fond of in the beginning for whatever reason and one of those persons was Melody. My spirit just didn’t align with this girl’s own.
We played tenor together for a while and for most gigs we were in the same line. I don’t know what it was about her that I didn’t like because she was nurturing her black consciousness, being educated, she was pretty, her hair was bomb and well she was eccentric in her own way. All things I would regularly dig in another human. What was my problem? Maybe I was still coming into my own self like I alluded to before my later teens were turbulent as they could’ve ever been because my mind was in such a mess (reference that Spongebob scene where everything was burning in his mind) yup! That’s was me. Fast forward to 21/22 year old me and me and Melody the “par haad!” We’re discussing politics, ambitions, relationships and everything in between!
It’s been a slow-to-grow relationship but I’m glad it did. They say everything will bloom in its time and I’m grateful for that. Melody, I appreciate you chica! I admire your open mind, your humanity, your uniqueness, your confidence. Thanks for not shunning me and my miserable self, thank you for accepting me in my growth even though you were oblivious of that action.
Cheers to many more years and beach days?